Guess i didn't expect this to happen . I can accept criticism . No worries . I accept them and change for the better but i didn't expect to feel so differently . The sourness in my chest was 100 times more than the usual amount . I couldn't control my tears at all . Tears and mucus falling drip by drip . Faking to wipe my mouth and quickly brushing through my eyes and nose hoping you won't notice .

My morning sucks . Even though we are having breakfast together but my morning still doesn't feel that good . So for the whole morning i couldn't even force myself to be happy . So that's why i do childish things to bring the mood up . Childish = childish acts . No ? Being a child, it's all about being happy . But i guess I've overdone it .

Didn't expect you to be frustrated about it . You said you are going through a stressful month and you can't stand it when people do small nonsense acts around you . You also say that i'm a 21 year old girl not 12 so act like one .
Doing such actions may seem cute but overdoing it makes you frustrated . Okay . I understand . I got it .

The message behind this incident is ... Stop acting like a kid, act like an adult . That's all .

I thought i could be myself . You said i could . I don't have to change . But why this now ?
This sentence kept repeating in my head and the sourness level increases .

Didn't thought it will hurt so much . Had a short yet extreme crying break after lunch . Been so long since i have to hide in a cubicle and cry silently . I thought i can do it in front of you . Guess i still can't, worse still if the person who made me cry is you .

You said you felt the sourness cause i'm feeling so . Sigh . Didn't mean to . Really .

Whenever you say sorry to me, my tears welling in my eyes and eventually flows . Seems like i have to take out my same old hidden sentence again .

"If sorry helps, then what's the use of having police or law ? "

It just hurts too much . I can't handle . I really can't .

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